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我想做回以前的我

2011-01-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

每一次在巴士無所實事時，我都想拿起手機記錄下當時的心情。我想我是個天生的勞碌命，手裡拿著日記簿就想把自己空擋的時間排得滿滿的，好怕自己一直待在家。當我聽到朋友說喜歡待在家時，我卻是恰恰相反。好奇怪對嗎？我寧願選擇一個人在外遊蕩，也不想回家。我清楚得知道理由，可是卻說不出。

最近的我，一直浪費時間與思想在一個無關重要的人身上。明明知道很傻，卻放不下。不可能的事就應該學習瀟灑的放手，這才是原本的我。他已經干擾了我思考的能力，轉移了我生活的中心。這並不是原本的我，為什麼會這樣，重複的在朋友面前提起到連我自己都覺得煩。

在這事情還沒開始之前，因為看了"女王力"這一本書之後，我了解到其實女人沒有男人也可以很獨立，可以活出自己的精彩。在這一段時間里，我好輕鬆，頭腦一點複雜的思想也沒有。到處吃喝！可是呢？現在的我還可以這樣嗎？那個以前的我到地跑到哪裡去了？我想時間可以停留在那一刻。不管是早上醒來睜開眼睛或是睡覺以前，我都是想著同一件事。

末干年後，我讀了這一篇文章之後我會覺得很傻。可是我寫下的是這一刻的心情。時間會淡忘這一切，但絕對不是現在。不停的工作可以麻醉自己，可以暫時忘記。

逃避與現實

2010-11-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

我不明白為什麼有些人總是選著逃避，難道這樣會比較快樂嗎？不真真正正的面對現實而選著當個懦弱者，事情就不會純在嗎？
逃避也許只能用在給自己喘氣的時間，長久下去只會把問題擴大。有時好好的面對事情的真相，才發覺原來沒有我們想像中的那麼嚴重。

我就有碰過很多朋友，因為逃避而選著失蹤。連自己最好的朋友也不敢面對，不敢向對方說出心里的話。因為這樣到了最後連朋友都做不成。認得情感很簡單，喜歡就是喜歡，不喜歡就是不喜歡。不要執著的常識自己永遠不可能的東西，到頭來只會浪費自己與他人寶貴的時間。

突然想起我是不是要把我部落格的網址放上fb，可是最後想想還是算了。因為部落格所寫的完全是個人的感想，並不需要的到認同。也成進有一段時間，我很在乎別人對我的看法，不管是思想上或外表上。可是後來發現這一切並不重要，自我的思想和理想才使最終的目標。

Relaxing Saturday Afternoon

2010-11-15T17:32:00.004+08:00

Christmas is coming around the corner, but I have yet to shop for any Christmas gift. To be honest, I really dislike to shop for Christmas nor birthday gifts.

These are the reasons:

1) Sometime it’s really a waste of money cos you do not guarantee your friend will like the pressie that you bought.

2) Time wastage (Looking round and round in the shopping centre, picky on the right choice was a hassle)

3) I felt that a simple birthday cake counts (I really do love birthday cakes, no matter how it is like)

Urm.. So… U don’t have to spend a lot of money on buying presents for me as I only want a birthday cake which is really simple.

Last Saturday, went out with Tang Tang again. She always like to say we so ai mei, keep seeing each other again and again. Nothing really special, it’s just a relaxing Saturday afternoon.

We had our lunch at Daikokuya @ Paragon, restaurant that is famous in different kinds of ramen. Hmm.. Not that bad but i still prefer the one located at Central. I felt that the Tamago is nicer over there.

She looks good posing with that book of mine, isn't it? Haha.. I really love the book she is holding, it's about women can still have confidence even she is in her 30s.

Original Miso Ramen. The soup base was not that bad, just that the Tamago was too salty for me. Overall was good.

This is Macha Zenzai. Japanese traditional dessert with glutinous rice balls. Although it look really good, but it was extremely sweet. So i think most of us wouldn't like it.

The lion is hang in the ceiling @ The Market Place. So Cutez..

As Christmas is drewing near, there are lotz of Christmas Trees in Orchard Road. This Christmas Tree was made up of Bears in different colors. Haha.. Hot PINK..

Small version of Beary Christmas Tree @ Level 3 Takashimaya.

轰轰烈烈的战

2010-11-09T19:42:00.004+08:00

＂不要戰還沒開始打，就先否定自己，覺得自己會輸！＂

很多時候在感情方面，我都持有這樣的想法。因為對某些人產生好感，而不敢進一步多認識這位朋友。我讀過某本書成經提到，吃個飯，做個朋友沒什麼大不了。可是因為自己的害羞，總是無法踏出這一步。

我很羨慕那些勇敢的女生，大膽的喜歡，敢愛敢恨。我常識想改變，可是到目前為止，我還是無法成功的跨越這道牆。

為什麼戰還沒打，就先否定自己了呢？是自己的自信心被動搖了嗎？

在书里面读到的是信心所带来的魅力与自信，我也希望我能做到。提到做得到，代表的是发自内心而不是嘴巴说了就算。我知道很难，但我愿意挑战。没有踏出第一步，就不知道结果。就算失败了，也曾经勇敢过。我也不觉得自己会被取笑，因为我做了很多女人敢想却不敢做的事。这是壮胆的开始！

加油！希望很快你们会听到我的好消息！

A million thanks

2010-11-07T21:12:00.003+08:00

It's been long since i last blog.

The feeling of re-visiting my own site is amazing. I didn't know that there are so many viewers who actually leave messages for me. It really encourage me to resume blogging and write my true feelings.

Everytime when i browse through people's blog, I felt that some are just recollecting the day activties and recording down what they did each day. It maybe really good, as you can flip back 5 years later and see the changes that you have made. Everytime when i wanted to show people how m i like last time, i will always show them my blog. I always hope that by doing so i can motivate people no matter it is on slimming topic or on other issues.

Time change, human change, so do I. But I hope that the positive characteristic of me will remain there. I am not good in expressing thoughts in English but i will try. I wanted to tell you guys that I am really good now, although i still haven't find a partner to accompany me. I have re read the comments over and over again. Although i do not know who you are and where you get to know my blog, i just wanna say a million thanks.

I have changed, to a better me and for a better tomorrow.

My next post will be my Dayz in Shanghai. Do stay tune.

(To be honest, it's quite hard for me to upload pics nowadays as my old lappy is very slow and can't even edit and resize it in photoshop. So when i have time after work, i will slowly post some.)

It is big as i can't resize using photoshop. This is the recent me taken in our company's DnD @ Shangri-La.

Health

2010-08-11T10:19:00.002+08:00

This morning when i wake up, i sudden feel the urge to blog. Do not have any particular topic in mind, but just feel like scribbling something in this plain blog. The day before i was admitted to Tan Tock Seng Hospital due to Gastro Virus. A kind of food poisoning which may be pass by someone who have the same symptom. I suffer from serious diarrhea and vomitting. Till now i still feel weak and strengthless.

Yesterday was quite sad, as early in the morning the nurse wake me up and ask me whether i could discharged alone cos my parents were both working. I was quite lucky to ask my mum to leave me 6 bucks, so, due to not enough money to cab home. I take mrt instead. I feel giddy and wobble my way home.

When i reach office to submit the HL, i nearly broke down when i saw sim hoon and cherie. But i am glad that i reach home safe and sound. Health is wealth, do treasure our own health and eat moderately. But still sometimes, this virus can't be prevented.

Destiny helps decide everything

2010-05-18T16:50:00.001+08:00

Every time when I am feeling lonely, I always wish to find someone who is suitable for me. I am always looking out for chances and emphasize to myself that I should wait.

But when I start to notice someone whom I like, I will keep noticing or looking out for that person. Trying to know more about him and silently observing that person. When I fall deeper, I do hope that someday I can just confess directly. This is just stages, stages from like to dislike and totally no feeling for that person.

After some time, I realize that I shouldn’t do this. I should depend on destiny. Maybe my friend is right, I do not want a boyfriend but someone who will be my companion. What I truly want is someone who can advise me when I am in a difficult situation. When I start to look deeper into this issue, I felt that it’s hard for a male who lend a listening ear if he don’t fall for you. It’s a mindset.

Just Anna

2010-05-07T13:25:00.000+08:00

Anna seldom cry infront of people
Anna seldom angry
Anna seldom share her thoughts with others
Anna seldom had birthday celebration
Anna seldom get a big hug from people when she is sad

Actually,
Anna sometimes loves to cry out loud
Anna sometimes love to vent anger on people
Anna sometimes love to open my heart and have a great talk with friend
Anna sometimes wants a big birthday celebration
Anna sometimes wants a big hug when she is sad.

Anna is just feeling so lonely.

Laughter

2010-04-28T18:09:00.001+08:00

After keying piles of document, I suddenly reminded myself that it’s time to blog. I realize that I can’t laugh too much, I will feel tired and exhausted after laughing. But I am addict with laughing, I will laugh even a small joke but starts to think a lot when I am alone. Weirdo me.

Rabiah's Engagement

2010-04-26T17:55:00.002+08:00

Blogging is the best place to keep memories. Especially when you post up photos that you have taken with friends. A few years down the road, you can still reminisce the times spend with the date and feeling written down.

Time flies, yesterday is Rabiah’s engagement day. I have attended her engagement with Mt and Xj. It’s a kind of awkward feeling when last year she is your poly classmates and this year she is engage. I strongly felt that girls change a lot of the age of 20 to 30. We underwent 3 stages. From a student to an adult, from an adult to a wife and from a wife to perhaps a mother. Omg, so fast. I really must enjoy my life to the fullest now.

We didn’t stay long in her house as Mt need to study for her exam. As usual, Xj and I went to shop after she went home. Dinner was spend at Lerk Thai restaurant. I love their lighting and interior design, and of course the dishes were delicious. Due to our hungriness, we actually too many at once and couldn’t manage to finish it. Waste of food.

Lights in a row

Tom Yum soup in a pot (Signature Dish)

Sweet and Sour Dong Fen

Crispy Dumpling (Meat Filling)

Mixed Vegetables

Double me (Shot of the Day)

Self-portrait (I love her smile in this photo)

She insist that she wanted a pic in this pose. Haha

A friend of mine

2010-04-24T16:39:00.000+08:00

Sitting down at toastbox eating my favourite thick toast with floss but I seems like tasteless to me. I am feeling really sad, I am going to lost touch with a friend of mine. A friend who can give solution to my problem when I am feeling down, even a minor problem.

In the world, there will never be a time gauge for how long you going to know someone. 'Friends forever' is just a title for short term friendship.

I will never get in touch with this friend again nor will I see this person once more. I just need a listening ear, I need someone who can help me to differentiate which one is the right way to proceed. A clear mind to help me think in depth. It may be easy to find a friend but it may be hard to find someone that understand you.

It's ok. I know that I am strong enough to overcome the loneliness. I believe in myself and my luck to bought me one.

Eeyore Cushion

2010-04-23T14:47:00.002+08:00

After a long search for eeyore cushion, I finally got one in a heart shape design. It is Phet who saw it at Tampines One I felt that I am deeply in love with baby eeyore. Because their expression is so emo, very adorable. It cost me $17.90 but I felt that it is quite worth. Actually I am thinking of getting another small eeyore soft toy but Phet said that its quite expensive.

Woohoo, hugging it right now…
AND Sally go squeeze it so hard. Hard pain worz..

Can’t wait for 5.30pm, as today we are watching date night. Phet said that it’s a hilarious show and I am sure that there’s should be a night out for me at some bar. In love with beer.

Self-release day!

2010-04-22T16:45:00.001+08:00

After so long of dieting, I finally break free myself for once and the feeling is really is shiok till bao zha. I really don’t want to care anything about my weight and how my stomach looks after eating.

Early in the morning, I went for Sausage Mcmuffin with egg set meal. In the afternoon, I go for dumpling noodle, ice-milo, bobo cha cha and 6 Lerk Thai fish ball. I am so sitting down at my office desk feeling bloated. But the feeling is really extreme, I have successfully conquer my cravings after so long.

I strongly recommend the Lerk Thai fish ball with sweet spicy and sour sauce and some peanuts powder. Juz heat up for 30 sec and the sauce is really hot and delicious. Thanks for the recommendation from Phet.

After today, everything will be back to the same. Everyday living in bread world. In order to get slimmer, I have to sacrifice my appetite.

Today is my day!!!

Broken English

2010-04-20T13:06:00.000+08:00

Recently, due to lack of reading books and keep writing chinese, i have problem phrasing and writing in correct english. Everytime, when i want to send out email or write formal stuff, i had a hard time doing so. I guess i need to start reading storybook and check more dictionary to improve.

Jaz and me at Barossa

2010-04-16T11:03:00.003+08:00

While the management is having meeting, i shall take some time to blog. Yesterday, it was a chill out session with Jazsica at Barossa. Quite a nice place to relax and as usual chatting session. She told me alot about how she go along resigning from colographic and the anger she finally vent out on that 'family'. She indeed spoke for herself.

Nevertheless, congrats to her in finding a new boyfriend. The whole night she keep emphasizing on how handsome is a boyfriend, really glad that she is proud of it. Jaz, the whole night you wanted me to praise on the looks y0u have changed. Seriously speaking you are now changed with the clothes that you wear. So keep it up.

We also discuss about human fact. Thats the part where i told her i have zero confident with myself. I was unhappy with eating just 2 piece of bread per day. She said that i have to break myself free from the cocooon that surrounding me.

Nightmares on Excel Sheets

2010-04-15T13:59:00.002+08:00

Omg.. Recently the job i am doing now needs to update plenty of excel sheet and yesterday night i actually dream of me myself sitting infront of the PC updating excel. What happen to me? Am i too stress up? I guess so.

So today, i wanna relax myself. I am eating a piece of dark chocolate with my favourite accapella music. I need to release myself from the stress i had yesterday. How can i balance my lifestyle? By doing exercise, or merely doing my favourite shopping? I guess the second answer is more suitable for me.

2010-04-07T13:04:00.002+08:00

Sudden feel the emptiness deep down my heart. It's not good to be alone. Seriously. I use to love doing shopping alone, sitting in cafe, drinking a cup of hot coffee alone. Because I felt that that's life. I should enjoy my life being alone. But when i came to this new working environment, i realise that alot of people are married and have their own family. Happiness is surrounding them.

To be more precise, the bad point about going out alone is when you see some exciting stuff or when you tend to see something special you can't share. You can only keep in yourself.

What had happen to me? I can survive alone without anyone to care about me? Am I right?

Personality Test

2010-04-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

Your personality type: "Reliable Realist"
Serious and quiet, interested in security and peaceful living. Extremely thorough, responsible and dependable. Well-developed powers of concentration. Usually interested in supporting and promoting traditions and establishments. Well-organized and hard working, they work steadily towards identified goals. They can usually accomplish any task once they have set their mind to it.

Careers that could fit you include:
Business executives, administrators and managers, accountants, police, detectives, judges, lawyers, medical doctors, dentists, computer programmers, systems analysts, computer specialists, auditors, electricians, math teachers, mechanical engineers, steelworkers, technicians.

I have to answer 41 questions to get this short result. Not time worthing.

我与我的照片

2010-03-15T20:51:00.004+08:00

好久不见，但我依然还是老样子。新的工作，新的生活节奏。其实之前，我有很多的新得和概念想和大家分享，可是因为懒惰所以依依都给忘了。

虽然，上载的照片很多都能在facebook看到，可是我还是想把它记录下来。字不一定每个人会想读，但我相信照片是每个人都爱看的。我会找时间把我在云顶啪的照片给上载。敬请期待！

最後一次

2010-01-09T13:07:00.004+08:00

在我最後一次　閉上眼睛之前
我想對你說我愛你
在你懷裏捨不得放棄
心裏有千萬語沒說給你聽

我使勁全力　不想閉上眼睛
這次告別就不能再相遇
不能再陪你　但不要忘記
你曾經答應我你會好好活下去

想走了　去了好遠的地方
不能再陪你看日出　等不到天亮
所有回憶　抹去卻並不容易
生死由天決定　不要太傷心

在我最後一次　閉上眼睛之前
我想對你說我愛你
在你懷裏捨不得放棄
心裏有千萬語沒說給你聽

我使勁全力　不想閉上眼睛
這次告別就不能再相遇
不能再陪你　但不要忘記
你曾經答應我你會好好活下去

在我最後一次　閉上眼睛之前
我想對你說我愛你
在你懷裏捨不得放棄
心裏有千萬語沒說給你聽

我使勁全力　不想閉上眼睛
這次告別就不能再相遇
不能再陪你　但不要忘記
你曾經答應我你會好好活下去

我永遠愛你

最後一次的歌詞是一位17歲少女寫的，這位女生是因為高3要考試時去做體檢, 檢查出來她的血蛋白異常, 結果她父母親和男友建議她去醫院做健康檢查, 檢查出來後發現是一種極為罕見的皮膚病.

這種病名稱叫做 "馬拉基斯先天性血蛋白病變", 簡單來說就是嚴重皮膚病的一種, 這種病很罕見, 機率大概5萬~10萬分之1不等, 通常這種病只會在熱帶國家發生. 這種病越嚴重皮膚就越嫩, 到末期後因為皮膚沒辦法在支撐而導致全身血管"爆裂", 只能躺在血泊中死去.當然, 這種病以目前醫學技術還算是"絕症", 是無法根治的, 這位女生在知道後痛苦了許久, 父母和男友強制幫她辦休學並強迫一定要住院觀察, 因為他們其實還抱著一絲絲的希望, 而男友也因為女友生病而自己辦休學並每天不眠不休的照顧她.

而且, 他知道那位女生喜歡看日出, 男友就常常親自背著她去看日出, 這些舉動讓那位女生感動不已.幾個月後, 那位女生漸漸知道自己已經活不久了, 她希望寧走前能送給男友一份永生難忘的禮物, 所以, 她就偷偷的做了這首曲子, 並找她的好友來錄音, 於是, 她竭盡全力唱出了獻給男友的這首歌, 唱完後她因為毫無遺憾了, 所以, 她跟醫生說她希望能夠安樂死, 並希望能在死前在聽一次她自己唱的歌, 醫生答應了, 而這位少女就在她自己的歌聲中靜靜的死去.之後, 她這位男友因為聽到她的創作後太過傷心和懷念, 就帶著女友的照片找遍了所有馬來西亞的日出, 有一次, 男友在山頂時因為不小心跌倒而摔落了山谷, 就在一遍祥和寧靜的日出中喪生, (巧合的是, 這座山剛好就是這位男友第一次帶她女友看日出的那座山) .......... 這是幾年前轟動馬來西亞的傷心故事。

Farewell treat for Yammy

2009-11-19T20:27:00.002+08:00

Yammy is going back to Nepal on 25 Nov... I guess i am going to miss her lotz...

現實

2009-11-09T00:22:00.001+08:00

我發覺人類是個很現實的動物，當你擁有至高無上的地位時別人就會看的到你的存在。而當你只是個無名小卒人家就會連采度不想采你。那有些人為了博取別人的注意，就會做出一些明顯的形為。

現實網網讓人無法控制自己，那是結口嗎？還是自己不夠涵養呢？而我任為是後者，原因在於涵養可以包容很多，可以容忍別人所不能。可以做到表面的不生氣，可以在對的情況下說出對的話。

等於

2009-11-05T21:05:00.001+08:00

我人生中最討厭的就是等待，尤其是沒有結果的等。所以每當有這樣的情況發生時我會選擇放棄。但網網現實中的我們等的只是機會，比方說升職的機會。那如果像缺乏耐性的我會如何對待呢？

失望

2009-10-22T22:14:00.004+08:00

失望是件很平常的事，可是因为自己的不认真而做错我觉得是件很不可原谅的错。曾经有人告诉我，如果连自己那关都过不了，又怎样可以让别人对你满意。我真的很气自己，每一次都是自己的懒惰造成的。因为这样而让人留下不好影响，就很难挽救了。

恐怖片

2009-10-20T22:14:00.006+08:00

這幾天我的喉嚨真的很辛苦，不是養就是疼。那天和eileen去看一部戲叫darah 本來我以為是恐怖片結果原來是血辛片。惡心的半死，現在劃面還一直在我頭腦。我答應我自己以後在也不看恐怖片了。真討厭我自己又要看又要怕。真沒用。鴻宇說韻義從來不看恐怖戲的。看她外表，我還以為她是個很大膽的人。

Last but not least,

累了！

2009-10-18T01:25:00.001+08:00

很担心自己不能准时把功课做完，可是我真的好累！

聊天

2009-10-17T12:29:00.003+08:00

Hmm...突然头脑里一片空白，在踏巴士来这里时我想起以前的旧同事。想到我们有聊不完的话题，想到其中一位同事的样子我就觉得好笑。

面前摆着的是刚吃完的杏仁糊，旁边坐的是一对好友在聊着天。这一刻真的好难得，没有实际的烦恼。看到好友在聊天，我觉得是件很幸福的事。不一定是情侣，只要有相同的话题就够了。我好久好久没和一个知心的朋友聊天了。

昨天和妈妈一起看我的部落格，我想起很多以前的事。每一次我写过的事，我会一再的重读又重读。可是因为最近的懒惰，就很少再记录事情了。拍的照片也越来越少！

伤害

2009-10-08T00:11:00.000+08:00

有些人会利用别人的善良，也有有些人会选择仗势欺人。可是那是对的行为吗？人已人之间的太度和尊重是必要的。太度形成了很大的关键，一个善意的话也可能因态度而变得恶意。也许无心也许有心，但制造的伤害已存在。双方也因此存有隔膜，我不希望会在有。

忍

2009-08-25T20:41:00.001+08:00

l0nelyplanet:

仿佛好像好久没像现在这样自己一个人坐在hawker center 喝着我最爱的teh tarik 吃着丰富香料的nasi bryani。天空现在下着毛毛细雨，但太阳还是依然照耀着。让人处在一种矛盾的状态中，难道老天爷也矛盾了吗？

我把思绪拉到现实生活中，才恍然发觉我满头脑想的只是工作。下个月我就要到新的工作环境去了。虽然很多人都不支持我这么做但我还是坚决的相信自己的想法。我要学会坚强，学会不轻易的被打倒。

"忍"是一个很难做到的字。忍可以让人轻而一举的落泪，我觉得进期来我便得很脆弱很容易因为一点小事就掉眼泪。我讨厌这样的我。原因是为什么我也不知道，我想是时候磨练一下自己的意至力，要懂得向人底头而不是永远活得高高在上。万丈高楼平地起就是我现在该踏的旅程。

Dayz at Batu Pahat

2009-08-02T15:41:00.003+08:00

现在记下的是上个星期天George, Elvina 和我一起去的一间千佛寺，位于Batu Pahat 的一个地方。寺庙里供奉的是成千上万的神灵，包含的是佛教，印度教，道教，泰传佛教。可说是让我大开眼界，也是我从小到大见过最多神灵的一次。

近期

2009-07-21T20:26:00.002+08:00

嗨！这次因为工作忙，所以很少有时间blog了。可是一旦有机会我会把最真实的事给记录下来，因为我每次会不断的回顾过去的一切。每一次看到那些照片时都有不同的回忆。虽然没空加上懒惰我还是很努力的想把所有的照片放上网和大家分享。好让大家知道我近期的状况。

还有我终于把头发给弄直了，感觉好轻松。比起一头凌乱的头发确实好多了。

遇策

2009-07-15T22:49:00.002+08:00

l0nelyplanet:
现在坐在巴士上，忽然想起昨天又去了另一个朋友的生日party。这位朋友是我和学校团队去越南时认识的，当然昨天也碰到了很多我在poly的同学。

就有其中一位说他和他女朋友分手了，我还感到满意外的，因为他女友和他长得满象的。他就告诉我世事难料，也对，人生有什么事是我们遇策得到的呢？我们每一个人也许对未来聪满着好奇，想知道答案，盲目的相信算命先生说的话。

Seldom Blog

2009-07-08T09:27:00.002+08:00

Sitting inside the office, silent blogging. I guess my viewer is getting lesser and lesser. Nowadays i m seriously bz working, i think i can only blog during weekend. I realise tat working environment is totally different from school environment. I shall elaborate more during this wkend. Anyway, i need to buck up and carry on with work.

巧合

2009-06-21T22:08:00.004+08:00

Finally, i upload some of the photos that i taken with xj.

人生中好像充满着巧合，世界好像那么小。就在和秀娟庆祝生日的这一天，刚好我们聊到工作的地方，我毫不犹豫的拿起相机和秀娟分享我的同事有哪些。当晚她就看见了其中的一位同事，感觉好奇怪，为什么竟然有这么巧的事。你们还记得“向左走，向右走”这一套戏吗？可能我们人生的另一半就和我们擦掮而过，只是我们根本都不知道，直到相遇的那一天。有些时候我们会觉得对方很面熟，好像在哪见过。也或许我们曾经和这个人说过话，只是我们已经遗忘了，是不是一种很奇妙的感觉呢？人的记忆不断的在改变，只有身边最亲的人永远不会被遗忘。

Sick

2009-06-18T22:21:00.003+08:00

I m not happy, not happy with what i have now and the lifestyle that i am living. I am really sick of it. I noe my mistake and weakness but i juz couldn't help making the same mistake again. Why can't i juz control. I can do better than what i should, i can rely on myself.

Hair cut

2009-06-07T21:43:00.001+08:00

I juz got my hair cut today. Still look the same, juz alittle bit shorter. Will upload some photo when free..

2 museum at once...

2009-06-01T21:02:00.003+08:00

Due to free admission, i have visited 2 museum at once on both sat and sun with diff people. Quite interesting...

2009-05-23T12:46:00.000+08:00

Capricorn

In Love
Capricorn in love is a different matter. Caps tend to be somewhat distrusting of love and the other person's motives in general. People of this sign exercise extreme caution before revealing their true emotions, and this understandably gets in the way of starting romantic relationships. They would rather keep their feelings to themselves if it means risking rejection.

That said, when a Cap makes the commitment to be in a relationship, it's an all or nothing venture. These people love deeply, and will work hard to keep romance alive and well. In fact, although their outward stoic natures may make it seem otherwise, Capricorns are very passionate lovers!

Once a Capricorn marries, he/she is likely to stay that way no matter what challenges are encountered along the way. This is especially so if the spouse is a member of a compatible zodiac sign. Caps fully believe in "Until death do us part", and jealousy definitely has its place in the Capricorn personality.

In Friendship
Caps make excellent friends, and their loyalty is without question if they take you under their wing. However, woe to any friend that betrays them. Caps have long memories, and they make daunting enemies to those who are foolish enough to mistreat them.

In Career
Caps are hard workers and reliable to a fault, if such a thing can be said. They like to plan things out methodically to make sure every base is covered, and they always stick with a plan of action until they meet their goals. If Sagittarius is the project initiator, Capricorn will see the job through to completion after Sag has lost interest and moved on.

Capricorns have a healthy respect for authority, but also demand that same respect when they are in charge. They set very high standards for their own performance, and expect exactly the same from co-workers and underlings. This demanding nature can make people of this sign a bit difficult to work with, but that's not to say they don't deal fairly with others. Anyone who can live up to Cap's standards is assured of a measure of success.

2009-05-18T20:11:00.001+08:00

Hi friends,

I tink i wun be blogging frequently cos too bz with my own wk. But if there is any happening around me i will still note it here.

So, stay tune.

Frustration

2009-05-10T21:34:00.001+08:00

I dunno why nowadays i am very frustrated by the surrounding or the environment. I really dunno what happen to me, don't feel like talking to anybody or even dun have the appetite to eat anything. Hopefully i will be fine soon.

Wish me health...

It's Painful

2009-05-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

2009-04-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

心情日记

2009-04-26T12:23:00.002+08:00

棋子

2009-04-22T14:46:00.004+08:00

棋子

想走出你控制的領域卻走近你安排的戰局

我沒有堅強的防備也沒有後路可以退

想逃離你佈下的陷阱卻陷入了另一個困境

我沒有決定輸贏的勇氣也沒有逃脫的幸運

我像是一顆棋進退任由你決定

我不是你眼中唯一將領

卻是不起眼的小兵

我像是一顆棋子來去全不由自己

舉手無回你從不曾猶豫

我卻受控在你手裡

人生本来就像一颗棋子，命运让人没了选择的权利。有些人就像棋子的將領永远排在别人的前面高高在上，也有有些人像棋子的小兵那么的渺小，不起眼。但命运让我们无从选责，只有受人摆布，输赢只在那一烁间。很多人都说命运是掌握在自己的手里，你真的相信这句话吗？如果命运真的掌握在自己的手里就不会有天灾人祸，不是吗？听到这首歌我真的想了很多，很多。现实的人，每一天都在小心翼翼的走每一步棋，生怕哪一天会坠入别人，而天地下也有人每一天都想方设法的在布陷阱，让人坠入。你是属于哪一种人呢？或者两者都不是？舉手無回的就是我们的人生。

Outing again

2009-04-19T10:31:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time seems our group last gather. I remember the last time we meet was at marina square with Rabiah. But this time she was not around as she having toothache.

Mei Tong and Yammy left the place early, as for me and juan we continue to shop and have our dinner at Sumi restaurant. Not really recommended except for the black sesame ice-cream. The curry race sauce was too salty.

Lots of photo taken but it was not with me. Will upload it when i receive it.

Juz for fun

2009-04-17T20:11:00.002+08:00

Today due to job purposes i went down to bukit merah, n u noe wat's the first thing i ate?

是我好久没吃到的豆桨油条！！！赞！！！The you tiao was not very oily, very soft and smooth. It's a stall with makansutra recommendations.

Next i went to parkway parade and finally decided to sign up on starhub mobile boardband. It's really portable with plug n play function. This is the first post i blog with new internet connection. Haha...

Boring

2009-04-16T21:39:00.001+08:00

Cracking my brain, but there's still no topic to blog.

My life is too boring...

Trust

2009-04-12T14:58:00.004+08:00

I have thinking hard to find a topic to blog. And finally i found one. I recall a conversation i had someday. It's about trust. Does trust = believe? We use to say i believe you can do this, i believe you can do that but does that mean i trust you?

The truth may sometimes be cruel, i believe you can do this and that, but on the other hand i also doubt your ability. Or to be more cruel i may be just assigning you task to hit my personal motives.

Then how do we define "trust"?Can we trust our friend or we can only trust our family members? I have heard this million of times. A friend need trust but to be frank, a total trust on a friend leads to more hurt if something goes wrong. M i right? Just like a boss may not exactly trust an employee.

Everyone hate people who don't trust them, even myself. Human are always self-protective even they are in wrong, they will find ways and reason to protect themselves from the reality.

I m ill

2009-04-11T13:21:00.002+08:00

This few days i m seriously ill... Fever, diarrhea, vomit, cough plus flu... Combo!!!

3 Mar 09

2009-04-04T22:14:00.005+08:00

2009-04-01T22:06:00.003+08:00

为什么人老是会产生一种莫名的恐具呢？难道这是自然的吗？

今天的心情真的很乱，是我误会了人家的好意了吗？为什么我老是这样呢？

我到底能控制自己吗？

有那么难吗？

听到熟悉的歌，突然想起好多好多的事情。

Hansvision

2009-04-01T15:20:00.002+08:00

唐僧骑马咚那个咚，　后面跟着个孙悟空。
孙悟空，　跑的快，后面跟着个猪八戒。
猪八戒，　鼻子长，后面跟着个沙和尚。
沙和尚，挑着箩，　后面来了个老妖婆。
老妖婆，　真正坏，　骗过唐僧和八戒。
唐僧八戒　真糊涂，　是人是妖分不出。
分不出，　上了当，　多亏孙悟空眼睛亮。
眼睛亮，　冒金光，　高高举起金箍棒。
金箍棒，　有力量，　妖魔鬼怪消灭光！

This is what i type for primary 3 chinese class with hansvision... Haha...

I m now teaching half way through, but they r too guai so i m now slacking...

我的生活

2009-03-28T20:37:00.004+08:00

孤独的人：

昨天一整晚都睡不好，睡着了也不断的在做凌凌乱乱的梦。而且醒来之后就一直睡不着了。其时我一直在为--人的事而烦恼，我是不是很傻呢？只不过是小事一件，最多是大吵一场不欢而散而以。可能是我自己一直很不干心，为什么我们复出这么多得到的也只是一 “做了一半就跑人”我们在背后复出多大的心血你看到了吗？

当出是你自己说时间不是一个问题，你也知道当时我们有多忙。当你一直要求我们不断的修改时，我们也没在你面前暴怨过。可是最后换来的只是你这样的批评.

也许很多人读了也不明白我到底在说谁，但我了解有一个人一定跟我一样清楚，也感同身受。真的很气，无论如和，我一定要好好的回复他所说的话。

今天又是和往常一样，坐在咖啡店里。喝着喜欢的teh，吃着淡而无味的面包。等待已经是我生活中的一部分了。在等待人的时候会掺生一种期待，期待那个人来了之后会是什么情况。

莹莹
26/3/09

孤独的人：

嗨！为什么生为女人的我那么爱美呢？每天为了减肥和身材而烦恼，真的好辛苦好想放弃。我是个很容易发胖的人，可能是因为基因的关系吧！昨天楷媛一再的提醒我不要过度的减肥不然很有可能导致厌食疹。可是我不干心没有达到欲期的目标。我知道我可以的。加油吧！

莹莹
28/3/09

2009-03-25T22:18:00.002+08:00

孤独的人:

每一次在感到寂寞的时候或是踏巴士的路途当中，我种是想起一些零乱的思续。在想着想着的当而就会觉得自己是寂寞的，是我想太多了吗？我成认我是一个天生的完美主义者，所以这代表这压力。当一样东西做得不好时，我会好不由愈的则怪自己为什么做不好。刚刚才教完一个课，觉得单纯的学生没有烦恼真好。永远长不大，不须面对掺忍的现实真好。聊到这里我乎然想起自己的改变我真的觉得我已经长大了，不在像以前的我，思想方面也跟着改变。这是好事吗？

好久没打华文字了，这些都是我从手机打出来然后放进电脑的。真的很方便但应该有好多错别字吧！进请原谅。因为怎样都不比手写来得方便。

莹莹

Dayz out!!!

2009-03-21T14:47:00.001+08:00

This is my first time going out with vietnam trip friends. Quite fun especially when we play true or dare.

Simple steps to kill a fish...

2009-03-18T12:12:00.000+08:00

Sadness

2009-03-14T23:30:00.001+08:00

I have jus finish reading shin's cancer blog. She has passed away.

Life is short. Treasure it right now...

2nd day in vietnam

2009-03-13T11:57:00.004+08:00

Due to my laziness in sorting out the photo, i keep delaying the updates of 2nd day Vietnam trip. The first location is War Memorial Museum. Inside this museum, they display lots of photos of innocent victims that suffers during Vietnam and US war. After looking at it, i realize that during war time, the one who suffer most are children. Very sad after looking at all this. According to Mrs Lim, this museum is actually opened by American. They are guilty about what they have done to Vietnamese people.

Next we went to University of Technology in Ho Chi Minh. Haha, once enter the room, i realize that there was not much girls in their school. Because according to them, electronics stuff are not suitable for girls. Girls usually take up business or economics courses. Very different from Singapore isn't it?

Lunch Time!!!
This is one of the restaurant i like most but i have forgotten the name. I like the ambiance and interior design of the overall.

After Lunch, we visited VSIP. It's a joint venture industrial park between Singapore and Vietnam.

The customer service manager explaining to ask the timeline and events that takes place in this park. The industrial park manufacture lots of daily necessity like milk, clothing, medicine....

This is Siemens Manufacturer Industry. Talking about Siemens, i think of hand phone. To my surprise, Siemens major in the manufacturing of bus bar which use for building. Bus bar is the replacement of wires to transmit electricity.

This is pottery shopping centre. Inside here, u can find a wide variety of pottery stuff including miniature statue. Very cute.

Dinner Time!!!
Dinner in a cruise. While eating, the cruise will tour around Ho Chi Minh city for an hour.

2009-03-13T01:25:00.001+08:00

Sorry to keep u guys waiting... I promise i will be updating... I am super sleepy now... Haha

1st day in vietnam

2009-03-04T01:52:00.005+08:00

Hi, i am now in vietnam web surfing room. This is my first time doing blogging overseas, but it's too bad that i didn't bring along my usb cable to update photo. It's been 1.55 singapore timing now and i m not yet feeling sleepy.

Anyway today we went to presidential palace, vietnam post office and central market. It's kind of rushing as we don't have much time doing shopping. I bought a bag at 18 sing dollar, and i felt really regret i shld have bargain more than that.

Tml, we have to wake up at 6am, super early. Not enough of sleep makes me feel abit of running nose. Let's just keep in touch. I will stay updated for tomorrow trip. Cya.

Ah, i forgot to talk about this caesar hotel. It's really "astonishing". It's a 3 star hotal that have a look of industrial building. Luckily we still manage to get a good hotel room, but as for luci case they still need to change their room due to super lousy condition. I will upload the photo once i am back in singapore.

Birthday wishes

2009-03-01T19:39:00.002+08:00

Just watch someone's birthday video. Every year my birthday was just celebrated with either my friends or family. But i really hope that this year birthday will be something special or surprises. Haha. M i dreaming? Sometimes dream is very hard to fulfill, even imagination is false. Everytime, when i watches tv show, video or my friend's birthday party, i really do hope that i m the main character but it's hard. Nevermind, tonight i shall dream of it.

Genting part 2

2009-03-01T15:51:00.002+08:00

This was still on the first day, after we taken our rest in the hotel. My cousin says that taking reflection of ourself will cause bad luck but i juz love taking it. Reflection makes the whole picture look artistic.. Haha

Genting part 1

2009-02-27T23:06:00.002+08:00

Hi, i am back. Due to laziness and overloading of photos. I only manage to sort out day 1 photo. Nothing much on day 1, juz that we reach genting around 4 plus am and our checkin time is around 2pm. A torturing for me and eileen. Anyway, stay tune for more photos.

This time we were pretty lucky to stay is resort hotel. Its super well designed as it has jus been renovated. The solution for 5 ppl in 1 room is to put now the mattress. And of course the one that suffered most is eileen. She has to sleep in that hard bed frame with her own sleeping bag.

Spotted anyone?

Inspiration

2009-02-21T14:11:00.002+08:00

Juz browse through the post in the very first few entry of my blog. Last time i use to have lots and lots of stuff for me to blog. But nowadays i m lacking of inspiration. Tonight, i am going to genting. Hopefully when i come back i will have tones of photos for me to categorize and upload. That's the best part.
Actually, i can't quite believe that we are going to share a room with 5 person. How am i going to sleep. I felt that even with my mum and i sharing a bed, i also can't sleep. What happen to me? How am i going to struggle through this 4 days. Haha. Anyway, i will tell you guys the answer when i am back. Tell you what, my luggage was not yet pack. Super lazy to get all my stuff done.

After coming back from genting, i am preparing for the vietnam trip. First time going overseas twice in 2 weeks. Wishing myself Bon voyage.

Simply words...

2009-02-20T11:03:00.005+08:00

Back to teaching

2009-02-19T11:29:00.003+08:00

Tuesday was the first time i went back to teaching. It was really exhausted as it was one bunch of pri 5 students. So naughty, they don't even listen to you when you shout at them. The next day, i suffer from sore throat. How unlucky m i? Anyway, it was juz a part time job. Imagine next time if i m really a teacher, i think i need herbal tea everyday. Haha.

Preparing to go to work

Nan Hua Lab 1

I have juz change my braces color and it was super obvious. Bright plus luminous.

3 days 2 nights survivors

2009-02-14T15:08:00.003+08:00

After more than 48 hrs of struggling, we finally completed 2 projects. Now, everything is over. I can enjoy myself from now on. The first night we went to munir house. Once entering his house, i felt like sleeping, it's too comfy. But thinking of the proj, we have to strive on. The next night we went to lucinda house, she stays in the 22nd storey. Haha, looking downwards, i feel scary. At first, we thought that we can hand in our proj at 11.30, and after that we can have a big feast at seoul garden, but in the end there was bugs here and there and we have to edit it before 5. In the end, i end up having my dinner at toa payoh with XJ.

Yesterday was the lab time staying in lab. Although the time staying here was short. But i really miss the days with my friends.

Thanks to mong mong. For accompanying me and letting me twist around. Love ya, cya in vietnam...

2009-02-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

Life is tiring

2009-02-08T21:41:00.001+08:00

I m too exhausted now. My brain storage is over limit. Why do i have to face all this?

Memories

2009-02-07T12:21:00.004+08:00

This morning, i was transferring all my photos to my harddisk and i happen to saw this video. When i was watching it, i suddenly felt a little aching in my heart. Although, 3 yrs of studies was short, but it really left me with precious memories. It will be forever kept in my heart. I have witness the changes in from childish to mature, from playful to serious. I promise that i will cherish each and everyday with you guys.

Yesterday is a memory, tomorrow is a mystery...

Restless

2009-02-05T22:28:00.001+08:00

Juz drop by to check email. It has been a long time since i last updated. After next week i probably have more time to update. It's been really bz tis few wks. I m really very restless in doing anything, juz can't wake myself up.

New Year Resolutions

2009-01-25T13:46:00.002+08:00

Hmm, Lunar New Year is now right ahead of me. My new year resolutions are listed below:

Good Health
Good Wealth
Good Life

Happy New Year in advance!!!

Physical vs Mental

2009-01-22T19:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night, i was lying on the bed. Calculating the number of project I need to be submitted and I keep telling myself to endure, cos it's just weeks to go.

Talking about this, i start comparing mental stress vs physical tiredness. Which one is more torturing?

The conclusion that i made was "Mental stress is definitely incomparable with Physical stress." It's really torturing when you need to stress yourself by constantly telling your brain to do this and that. I really can't stand anymore.

Life still have to move on regardless of all this.

Moments

2009-01-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

My lecturer once said: "If you dun update ypur blog for a wk, then the viewer will become lesser or not going into it again"

So no matter how sleepy i m now, i will try to upload some pic.

This pictures were taken when we on our way heading to Teck Keong birthday. We were shopping in IMM first before we go over.

Open Hse @ NYP

2009-01-08T22:31:00.003+08:00

Today was NYP open house, really enjoyed. We were all craving for the goodies bag especially and it was very lucky for me to take part in the event as peer marketers. Anyway, it's the one and only time for me to take part in this school. A memory that i will never forget.

Posting with Juan Bf... Haha

I need to hold my bf tight b4 anna snatch snatch..

Graffiti on the floor

Beware!!! Dun step on my face!!!

Any swimming pool.. I tink i need wild wild wet!!!

DMIT rocks!!!

Xiao Pang Zi.. (Little Fat Boy)

Cool!!! Same same!!!

I wanna drink...

Yo brother!!!

Night view of NYP, Like a portrait...

This morning...

Taufik in NYP!!!

It's crowded!!!

Hot air balloon...

Main door of NYP

Random pics

2009-01-07T23:20:00.001+08:00

Moving On

2009-01-06T11:01:00.004+08:00

Right... sitting in the lab, what's next? Having a presentation later on. Doing after effects at the end of the day and finish my portfolio at home. I am super tired both physically and mentally.

I need motivation to move on.

Moving On

2009-01-06T11:01:00.003+08:00

Human Rights

2009-01-06T11:01:00.002+08:00

Human are the most vigorous living animal in the earth. They are really hard to cope with. To know someone thoroughly or inside out is equivalent to climbing a steeply slope.

Initially, when people describe human as a kind of animal i was pretty objective with this logic. But once i think it over. I realize the logic is 100% right. Haha... Just like carnivore vs herbivore. Fierce vs kindred spirit.

A carnivore was a dominance in nature. On the other hand, human being who have the power can also be extremely dominance. They tend to take control over the others. Whereas herbivore without the control power can only suffer.

I once watch a discovery show. The tiger will hide behind a bush to prey for a deer. The deer who have no dominance power became their food in the end.

Complicated human beings and its characteristic makes me feel frustrated. Sometimes you just dislike the person by nature. No reason behind, just purely by instinct judges.

New member

2009-01-04T10:46:00.002+08:00

Isn't she cute?

On Friday 2nd Jan 2009, Ah Sam first step into our home. This was the present from Juan. Thanks lots. It's the first and biggest Eeyore i ever received. After hugging and looking at Ah sam for a long time, i was still tinking whether wat is his gender? A boy or a gal. Haha... In order to protect my ah sam frm dust, I have decided to let her wore my primary sch singlet with hamster print on it..

awkward expression

I have collected my new white spec. Haha. Wearing it was like walking on top of clouds. Floating tiles makes me feel uncomfortable. I need time to get use to it. Do i look fresh now? Probably...

Happy New Year

2008-12-31T22:18:00.003+08:00

Spare me some time blogging while waiting for the countdown show to start. Browsing through celebrity blog, looking at all those fantastic photo taken let me crave on the photography skills even more. How i wish i do have some special technique to tak photo on myself from different angle without the help of others. I prefer photos that look natural and not just snap it while people are posing. It may look more interesting when the person do not know that u r shooting them.

Let me make some wishes for next yr:

Hope there's world peace
Bless to all who are unfortunate
As for myself, work harder and strive through all the obstacles that occur

Last but not least, Happy new year in adv!!!

Random pic...

2008-12-30T10:48:00.006+08:00

Angels & Demons

2008-12-30T10:48:00.005+08:00

Juz finish Angels & Demons by Dan Brown. It is exciting when the story comes to breaking the maze set by illuminati. After reading 2 bks by Dan Brown, I realized he do lots of research in both bk. He will go in dept to Christian history to merge with the storyline. Pretty interesting.

Angels & Demon teaches the reader a lesson, never place judgment when u have not listen to other's explanation. Maybe there is a story behind it.

Strongly recommend this bk. Thks yammy for lending me.

Loneliness

2008-12-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

Loneliness sometimes bring sadness to heart. I dislike the feeling of entering a house with no people nor walking down the street alone. It makes me recall of the past the unhappiness but not joy.

Thinking of the day when my mum and I have a conversation on marriage. I told her that if i can't find a partner in future, i will travel around to countries where there are place which in need of help like orphanage and on the way enjoy the wonderful tour around the world. Unfortunately, my mum dislike this idea. She said that every person in life needs a partner, if not you will be lonely. Although sometimes you may not feel the loneliness but deep down your heart you will still think about it. Imagine you went to a place which have beautiful scenery or you saw something which is very special. And at that moment you wanted to share with someone, but you can't find that person to share and enjoy with you. Isn't that very lonely.

True. On the other hand, finding the right person who share the same thoughts with you is also hard. Moreover, if you get to find someone who objects you, will let you regret too. There are still controversy against this topic.

2008-12-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is the day where i m in this earth for 20 years. Is it long? Categorize the events i have been through is alot, which i dun even noe how to start if u wanted me to write it down.
Growing older means i need to take care of more details in life. Life is full of unpredicted events and happenings. Let me juz treasure wat i have rite now...

I have make a new spec for myself..
Had a small dinner with my family..
Got a slice of cake from mum.. Cake is always the sweetest thing that i even had. Although its super small but bcos its from someone i love, haha, i really dun feel like finishing it..

Gifts receive from Ky and Ly.. Thks..

HitCounter

2008-12-21T15:37:00.001+08:00

I lost my hitcounter... I dunno wat happen... Stupid template cause so much trouble...

Now i have to start all over again...

Formalized myself

2008-12-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

I rmber that this photo was taken during my last wk of FYP. But i juz received it frm jess a few wks ago. So how do i look in formal? Isn't it professional?

Miracles

2008-12-19T14:00:00.002+08:00

Miracles are happening around everyday. People may survive through illnesses, people may suddenly become a millionaire overnight.

But when will I become this lucky gal? When will my dreams come through?

Probably people around me will give false idea on the dreams i wanted it to happen. Deep down in my heart is actually just a very simple task. It's juz the willingness to do it. Not myself, but people that surrounding me.

My heart is so painful. I wanted to end all this. I wanted people to help me but i can't tell.i know that i have grown up everything can be solve by myself. I know that i can only rely on myself to stay strong.

I wish to see miracle happen.

Outing

2008-12-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

This was my first time going out with KY. Quite enjoyable. We went to watch cape no.7. At first the show was rather boring. Cos most of the dialog was in Hokkien, but when it comes to the ending it was truly touching especially the song sang in the last part.

This was one of her favorite pic. Quite artistic right?

Hitcount

2008-12-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

Congrats!!! I have reach 3000 viewers!!!

Dinner with Leeying

2008-12-16T22:14:00.003+08:00

Actually just now i wanted to blog on a topic which i have been thinking since when online. But i suddenly couldn't remember what i going to type. Anyway, ky say that putting braces you can slim down and you know what? I have actually gain from 2kg to 4 kg.

I remember on sunday i was asking Juan. Did u realise that nowadays i tend to eat alot? And she nod her head. I don't why nowadays i just couldn't control my hungriness. I keep telling myself that bread is enough, in the end i fail. During the time when i take bread everyday, i seriously can't resist the craving for food. Whenever Juan ask me "Why can you tahan when people is eating delicious food?" Deep in my heart i just wanna eat, but i can't.

Sometimes life really seems meaningless if you can't enjoy yourself. Haiz. Unfortunately, after releasing myself and stare at the amazing figure in the weighing machine, you start to feel sad. I start to blame myself for not watching my diet.

I am filled with confusion. One part of me feel like eating endlessly and the other part of me feel like controlling myself. I really don't know what to do. How can I have myself to satisfy both questions?

Upside down..

2008-12-15T21:18:00.003+08:00

Something wrong with the smiley... (Upside down)

Dun b shy Ain... Happy Munir

Show ur teeth...

Super Unlucky

2008-12-13T10:30:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, Juan and I went to Mac to do our proj at Bugis. So we manage to get a plug for her lappy. While we were doing half-way through, this auntie wif her "new" laptop came to sit beside Juan. Initially, I saw her talking to the manager abt us but we did not noe what was it all abt.

Juan had a super true prediction. When she sat down, Juan told me that this auntie was pretty scary. She sense tat something was not right. Indeed, this ba dao auntie actually ask us to take turn to use a plug or share wif her.

So i said"If u have a muti-plug, then we are willing to share wif u..." Then u noe wat she say?
She said "Y not u all bring?" Hey come on, u expect us to bcos of u carry the multi-plug everyday in our bag ar? Nvm, wat juan hate most is that she ask us to tink abt it. Idiotic. We came early, n the plug is first come first serve manner.

So we ignore her, and suddenly she said her batt was flat. Ask us to let her use. Then we say we didn't bring our lappy batt. She said she was booking air ticket. Big deal ar, booking air ticket. We are doing our million business proj ok!!!

Flare up!!!

So we gave up the seat to let this empress dowager use the plug. We were so pathetic that we need to shrift the seat to another place and have to chair the table with others. N here comes another weirdo who juz bought a new hp. She ask us wat time we leave the place she say she need to charge her hp. Then we say we will staying until 7 to 8 or mayb a later time. U noe wat? She was stressing us by sitting beside us for damn long hrs. Ard 8 plus, she tak out her charger to prepare. She can't charge at home is it? So we left the place without even complete half way of our proj.

Now when i recall everything, dunno is flare up or find it funny. All kinds of ppl in the world.

Extraction

2008-12-11T17:10:00.002+08:00

Wat's my feeling now? Half face was numb. This was the second time i extract my teeth. Haha... This time was not tat afraid somemore 2 at once. When the dentist give me injection, he said that" is ur skin dead, how come u didn't feel any pain?" Haha... Actually during the 3rd injection, i did feel alittle painful but i can still bare with it.

This is my 2 newly extract tooths. With some blood stain on it... Yucks...

2008-12-10T23:34:00.004+08:00

Actually i have do a collage in photoshop but this stupid blogger dun allow me to upload waste my effort creating. Sianz...

Now i am using photobucket to upload... Hope it works...

N it really wks... Giving me a super big size pic... Haha

In the morning...

2008-12-07T09:51:00.002+08:00

This is how i look like when i first wake up... Hahaha...

Yeah..

2008-12-05T23:55:00.002+08:00

16 more days to my birthday...

Although there is no celebration or many present, but i still need to remind myself that i have grown older.

Counting down le...

A little bit sad oso... Haiz dunno y...

Frendz (Part2)

2008-12-02T13:12:00.004+08:00

That day KY sudden msg me saying she felt that although a close frend mayb with you for a very long time but he or she may not actually noe u.

Then I ask her what actually happen?

She ans me saying that she juz suddenly felt this way.

N my reply to her was "There is no forever frend in this world".

KY, I rmber one of my post abt frendship, if you are free you can turn back and look at it. Perhaps it may help u to solve the probs in ur brain.

Although there is no forever frend in this world, but the print they left in your heart is forever. You would never forget the times when you were together, eventhough it was a very short period of time. Sometimes we maybe wrong in certain circumstances, but I do cherish each and everyone beside me.

Sad...

2008-12-02T13:12:00.003+08:00

i flunk my test. Cos my program was not wking at all. Feel extremely sad. I realise i m super weak in programming stuff. I dunno y. I juz can't get the code right.

I am so disappointed with myself.

Metal Locking my teeth

2008-11-30T10:30:00.007+08:00

On Friday, i finally get my braces done.
The dentist perform 3 simple steps:
1. Glue the bracket to your teeth
2. Put on the metal wire
3. Finally, Put the colored rubber band.

It takes abt an hr to get all this done. As the dentist has something on later, I only manage to get my upper teeth done. I will need to wait for Saturday to get my lower teeth lock with metal.

1st day: Right after putting on the braces, you will feel that the whole set of teeth turn soft. Not because of pain, but juz unable to chew anything. But i have a wanton soup for dinner.

2nd day: Pain start frm yesterday nite. The pain run frm one side to another. Eat 2 kueh take me 1 hr. Super long. I have no patient, in the end i gave up half of the kueh. Went out with XiuJuan. Haha. The first thing she look at me she laugh. She say I look like Liang Po Po with braces put on.
Actually there is somemore pic.. But i have no time to upload will upload by tonight. Now i m going to IT fair with xuan.